The last few months have been filled with doctor appointments, tests, and mostly good news.
Last month I found out that I have some abnormal cells on my cervix. The doctor spoke positively about the whole thing. She said that they were precancerous cells. Some were grade 1 cells and some were grade 3 cells.
You can read all about that here.
Today I went in for a test that would allow the doctor to see my cervix more closely and get rid of the abnormal cells.
After the last test, she needed to determine a couple of things.
- How many areas had abnormal cells and which areas had grade 1 or grade 3 cells?
- How advanced were things? How deep did the abnormal cells go?
I was expecting her to be able to scrape out all of the bed cells and send me on my way. This would have been the best-case scenario.
After a few moments, she said there were two areas that have Grade 4 cells.
She said she would also need to biopsy both areas, which she did right then and there.
I hate to think of myself like a big baby, but the moment she attempted to biopsy the first area I practically hit the ceiling.
I was NOT at all expecting the pain. I laid on the table with tears streaming down my face uncontrollably the entire time.
Thankfully it was over within a few minutes. Now I have to wait for the results, which she said wouldn’t be back for a couple of weeks.
December 23rd I will find out the next step, Merry Christmas to me!
Sometimes it’s hard to stay positive when it feels like things are so out of your control.
It’s so crazy to think that I went in a couple of months ago for a routine physical and now I am facing the very real possibility of battling Cervical Cancer.
I trust that God has a plan. But I would be lying if I pretended that I am totally fine.
I came home and pretty much took the rest of the day to just process the information I was given.
Today I am trying to accept things as they really are (or could be) while also having faith that God has everything under control.
The thing is that I know there is a very fine line between Faith and Denial and I don’t want to cheapen God’s Story of Grace in my life by pretending everything is just dandy.
I know I am not the first one to go through this, and I am SO thankful for all the sweet messages I have received from those of you who have also had to walk this path.
Thank you for understanding why there weren’t many deals posted today.
Also, thanks again to everyone for praying and thinking of me during these last few months. It means the world to me to know I have an army of prayer warriors on my side 🙂
Mary S says
Sending prayers your way that everything will be all right.
Julie says
I went through the same thing, I pray your results turn out to be as positive as mine. All I had to do was have a hysterectomy.
I’m so glad to hear you have faith in God. He will be right beside you no matter what results you get.
And sounds like you can count on a lot of us lifting you up in prayer 🙂
Cynthia G. says
My prayers to you today, going up strong. As I know what it is like when everything does not ‘go as planned’. Take it one hour at a time, and lean on Him. All we can really do.
Elicia P says
This post brought me to tears. I wish the best for you.
Katrina says
Praying for you and thanking God for your faith. Your willingness to speak of your faith in this forum is a witness to those that haven’t discovered God’s grace. Surely He will honor you for that faithfulness.
Laurie Blackshear says
Been in your shoes three times – 2 times for breast and once for cervix. Always tough. Praying for you and your family.
Manette Gutterman says
Know that we’re keeping you in our prayers! Keep that faith!
Tammy says
Thinking and praying for a stress-free couple of weeks! I also pray for great results. My sister went through the same exact thing. She ended up having surgery removing all of the bad cells and her tests have come back clear the last 3 years. Keep us posted! Xoxo Hugs!!
Geri Pendle says
Prayers going up!!!
Tonya C says
Whatever He brings you to, He will bring you through!!!! Keep your faith and your strength. Know that there are those out here in cyber land keeping you in thought!
Beth says
You are in my prayers. The Lord has a will and a way. Prayers for you and your family!