I swear it is NOT cliche’…..I just blinked.
I remember every time someone warned me that it would all be over in a blink.
But the days turned into weeks and the weeks into months until I blinked one day and before me stood the most amazing young man I have ever know.
And now I feel like I can’t even catch my breath a little.
Like someone is sitting on my chest, which I hear is what it feels like when you have a heart attack.
And so maybe that is what this is?
My heart is breaking just a little. But not in the never ending painful kind of way that hearts can break.
This is the kind of breaking that leads to a stronger heart.
They say the heart is really a muscle, and I know that when you work out a muscle it will hurt because the muscle is actually tearing with the purpose of making it stronger when it heals.
And so, as I sit here today knowing that my heart may be breaking a little, I take comfort in knowing that it is a process that every mom goes through in the journey to having adult kids.
And learning to trust that the Lord loves him even more than I do….
Yesterday our son officially joined the Air Force and I couldn’t be more proud of him.
He started to talk about the Air Force a couple years ago the way kids talk about their futures with unsurety as they enter the end of their teen years. I know that plans change and so do dreams so I didn’t focus too much on what he was saying then.
The truth is that I half expected him to move on to a different plan but I should have known better.
My son has always been like a plumb line.
You can just count on him to be unwavering, the same always.
When he makes a decision you know he means it.
So although I didn’t hear much more out of him about the Air Force until a few months ago, I knew right away that he meant business when he talked about it again.
Yesterday he began the next season of his life.